On marriage…
I’ve been a bit lazy with my tumblring lately, and one reason is that my parents have recently announced they are splitting. Didn’t really see it coming and I’m having a shit time dealing with it. I want them to be happy, and even though I’m 18 I can’t help but feel this is the end of my family.
If I were religious, I guess I would have a “real” reason to be pissed off. I could yell and bitch about them breaking their oath to God, and insist they work it out. However this is clearly not the case, and no one in my family believes in God as far as I can tell. Aside from selfish reasons I have nothing. They aren’t happy and want out. I have no real choice but to accept it.
This has rocked my perception of marriage. I’ve always enjoyed the idea of finding someone you are happy with (let’s resist the urge to say soul mates) and spending your life with that person. But a lifetime is a long time. Is something like marriage even relevant anymore? Can two people from these up and coming generations make it last ‘forever?’ I have come to the conclusion that more than likely, no they can’t. I thought my parents were really gonna make it and had it good. Another somewhat childish belief out the window for me.
This doesn’t mean I don’t think there is something called love. And maybe some people will and can make it last. But does a ring around your finger make the difference? Doubtful. I expect down the line my opinion might be a little less gloomy. I fully expect to fall head over heels for some girl and have kids and everything, but who knows if I’ll tie the knot. Maybe this 18 year old should shut his trap for a while and wait till he’s a little less ignorant.
Ugh. Well, thanks Dr. Tumblr. I really feel like I had a breakthrough this week. I’ll send your check in the mail.
-Ryan
